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Saturday, January 31, 2009

A Few Snip-Its of my Life..

I wish a was a better "blogger", but I am just not.  I honestly just forget to update it. 
I just got home from seeing the movie "Bride Wars".  It is a cute movie about two best friends whose weddings get booked on the same day.  I love watching movies that take place in NYC.  It's just fun to see your everyday life on the big screen.  I went to see it with 3 other girls.  we actually had what we called "west 88th reunion".   We called it that because we all use to live  (at different times) in the same apt on West 88th street.  3 out of the 4 of us have moved to NYC in the last year and for all of us that apt was our first home here before getting our own apts.    So anyways, several scenes in the movie took place on the same neighborhood as where 2 of the girls who went to the movie live(they actually watched the movie being filmed from their apt).  It was so fun to watch the scenes and just look at each other and laugh.  If you watch the movie there is this one scene where Anne Hathaway is standing outside a subway station.  There is a North Face store right behind her.  I pass that store almost every day and use that subway stop all the time.  I actually walked through a movie set the other day on my way home from work that was right beside my apt. I was kind of annoyed because they detoured me and I was just trying to get home in time for bible study.    I keep saying that one of these days I am going to see my apt building on a movie or tv show.   It is kind of weird to me that walking through movie sets is becoming normal life to me here.  I can't say that I have seen too many celebrity's lately.  I did run into Kevin Bacon a few weeks ago at a grocery mart right beside my apt.  

Okay so NYC is not all about movie scenes.  So this morning I needed to do laundry SO BADLY!  Really my closet was overflowing with dirty clothes.  We don't have washers and dryers  in our building, so I normally lug all my clothes around the block to this tiny laundry mat.  Well today must have been the day that everyone decided that they did not have any more clean clothes, so when I got there there was not one washer that was open.  So, I tried to be patient and just decided to go back home and come back later. There was one washer that was going to be done in just a few minutes.   I needed to go back and get another laundry bag anyway that I could not carry (yes it is just lovely having to cart 3 bags of laundry around the block) So I was rounding the corner with my laundry bag when all the sudden I see this woman with her laundry bag coming from the other direction.  You want to know what my first thought was?  "You better not get that open washer before I do."  Thats right, I know I should have had a servants attitude.  but let's face it, at that moment I was like "Every man for himself buddy".  I want to serve and I know my attitude in the moment was wrong, but I really needed to do laundry and was on a time crunch.  So what did I do?  I raced her.  I ran inside the laundry mat before her to make sure I got that open washer!  Isn't that awful?   I was just having one of those moments when I was frustrated by the inconvenience of life here and was being totally selfish.  I really do want to serve this city, but boy does my sinful heart struggle so much of the time.  

So today I totally had to chase a bus down.  That's right I ran for 3 blocks chasing a bus to get on it.  I mean if you miss the bus you know you are going to have to probably wait at least 10 minutes for another one to come. and its COLD outside!  So instead of risking that awfulness, I saw the bus and I was far away, so I took off running!  My friend followed behind and we hopped on just in time.  We laughed the whole way because this seems to happen to us.  It's funny when chasing buses becomes part of life.  You gotta get home someway and people understand here.  To New Yorkers running after a big white bus is just normal part of the great public transportation life style!  And don't get me started about the subways here.  Yesterday I waited for 30 minutes for a subway because none of the normal trains were running local!  Really, you leave your apt and just hope for the best.  Although I know the subway system really well here, they are constantly re-routing and changing things up!  I guess the  city of New York likes to keep us on our toes.  Sometimes I just have to hop on a subway until I can switch to another one (or multiple ones)  that will eventually take me to where I need to be.  Have I ever mentioned that life is interesting here? 

If any of you read this blog and have small children you really need to buy The Jesus Storybook Bible by Sally Lloyd- Jones.  It is a beautiful children's bible that weaves the gospel message through every story.  She goes to Redeemer and we are writing our pre-school and Kindergarten Sunday School curriculum for Redeemer using that bible.  I am in charge of writing the Kindergarten curriculum right now, so I spend a lot of time nestled in this bible.  It is amazing how a bible intended for young children really does nourish my soul.  I honestly feel like right now I eat, sleep, and breath Kindergarten Curriculum but I really love that I get to dig into this bible and create a lesson from each of these stories.  

Another book I highly recommend is Whiter than Snow by Paul David Tripp.  It is 52 meditations on sin and mercy based around Psalm 51.  I just got it a few days ago and have loved reading it.  It speaks so powerfully about our sin and God's mercy in our life. 

I need to go to bed now, but hopefully that gives you a little update on my life.

Until Next Time....


Thursday, January 15, 2009

Change...

So I have not even had a chance to update on the new changes on my life.  As I think most of you know, for the past 5 months I have been working at Redeemer Church in the children's ministry and also at a Christian school in the city.  After starting the school year, it did not take me long to realize that it was going to be really hard to do both jobs.  I felt like I was working all the time and just burning out.  After much prayer and counsel I decided it would be best to quit the job at the school and pursue something different.  At the same time that I was beginning to think about not continuing on with the school, I talked to a lady at my church who was looking for a part-time nanny.  It is a family that I was connected to through some of the girls I work with at Redeemer and have baby-sit for them some.  Anyways, long to story short I quit my job at the school and started working for this family on Monday!  It was another one of those times where I saw God's hand in it and just had such peace.  He worked out all the details in unbelievable ways and has provided for me each step of the way.  This job is allowing me to give more time to Redeemer as I continue to take on more responsibilities there.  It is also allowing me to not feel like I am working all the time!  It has been a great change for me.  I love being in a family's home.  The mom actually does not work, but just needs help with her 3 kids under the age of 4.  I am quickly falling in love with these children and enjoying being part of a family up here!

On another note, it is full blown winter up here.  And to be honest, I am not sure I like it!  it is only Jan 15 and I am wishing for spring!  Growing up In Alabama and even being in the Carolinas the last few years I have not experienced cold like this.  The thing about it is,  you are just out in it up here!  I don't have a warm car to jump into and drive to work in.  I walk to and from the families house I sit for and it is 10 blocks. I am always having to walk somewhere even if it is to the subway station.   Needless to say,  I have learned the art of bundling up!  
I have never owned so much winter gear!  For the past week a scarf has stayed around my neck at ALL times:-)  I always love when spring rolls around, but this year I am going to be jumping for joy!!!!  

God of Grace

I had to type out the words of the song below.  It is a song we sing at Redeemer and I really love it.  I have read the words of this song quite a bit this week and it has been so good to be reminded that our God is a God of grace.  

God of grace, amazing wonder,
 irresistible and free.
O, the miracle of mercy 
Jesus reaches down to me.
God of grace, I stand in wonder
as my God restores my soul.
His own blood has paid my ransom, 
awesome cost to make me whole. 

God of grace who loved and knew me
Long before the world began
Sent my savior down from heaven
Perfect God and perfect man
God of grace, I trust in Jesus
I'm accepted as His own
Every day new grace sustains me
As I lean on Him alone

God of grace I stand astounded
Cleansed, forgiven and secure
All my fears are now confounded
And my hope is ever sure.
God of grace now crowned in glory
where one day I'll see your face
And forever I'll adore you
In your everlasting grace.  

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Back in the Rat Race...

New Years Eve with the Kittels
in Birmingham with my sister and bro-in-law

well I am back in the rat race of life in New York City.  I went south for 11 days and it was really great!  This was my first time to go home since I moved here 6 months ago (I went to SC in Aug for a wedding, but did not get to go home).  It was really weird to be out of the city.  Life here has become pretty normal, but when I go home I realize that life here really is SO different!  It was easy for me to compare so many things and even question why I moved to New York!  Being away from the city made me realize how fast pace this city is, how crowded it is, how tiny of a space I live in, how expensive it is, and so many things!  I could compare and compare and compare!  But then after being home about a week it just hit me, "I can't keep comparing"  I feel so called to this city.  It was a dream of mine to live here and God called me!  It many ways it really is a sacrifice.  Life goes on without me and I feel like I am missing out on time with my family and friends.  It was hard to say good-bye to my family and not know exactly when I am going to see them again.  I spent 4 days at my sister and brother in laws new house in Birmingham.  They have the cutest house with so much space!  As I looked around their house I thought "my whole apt could fit in their living area."  That is honestly hard for me!  It is funny that as much as I love NYC and wanted to live here,  going home made me struggle with specific things that I had to give up in order to move here.  So on the cab ride from the airport I just felt so lonely.  I looked out the window and said, "what in the world am I doing here."   But then I got back and I have quickly realized why I live here.  Besides being called here I really do love it!!  I love my my tiny apt.  It is home to me!  I love that I live one block from Central Park and that I got up yesterday morning to run in the park.  I love that every nationality in the world is here and that I am exposed to so many cultures.  I love that I go to Redeemer and that Tim Keller is my pastor.  I love that I work at Redeemer and that my job is children's ministry.  I love all the kids and families that I have developed relationships with at church.  I love that I don't have a car and I walk everywhere.  I love all the opportunities that I have in New York that I would not have anywhere else.  I really do love my life here.  I have to tell myself that, because it is hard sometimes!  I know living in the middle of Manhattan is not for everyone and I know I may not want to live here forever, but I am thankful for my life here today and for as long as God has me here.  
So one thing that is hard for me here is that I really miss the familiarity of the restaurants that I love.  There really aren't many chain restaurants here or just those "familiar foods that you love." Some of my favorites from the south are" Moes, Panera, Texas Roadhouse, Zaxbys, Chick-Fil-A.  You know just those "normal" restaurants. Which by the way, I managed to try to cram in as many of my favorite places as I could while I was home.  My mom said she had not ever seen me eat as much as I did while I was home. It was kind of funny:-), but I had to take advantage of all the places I miss and the free food (thanks dad!)   
Well tonight my friend Amy and I went to eat after church and she took me to a place she just found called "cosi's".  Well let me just tell you, I walked in and got so excited!  I felt like I was walking into a Panera and it really just brought joy to my heart. It really is a NYC version of Panera Bread.  and one of the best things was it had a drink station with fountain drinks where you can get FREE refills!  I know you think I am crazy, but I love fountain drinks (my friends know that about me:-)  ) and it is hard to get fountain drinks especially with free refills!  My friend was laughing at me as I was filled with so much excitement!  Not only that, but since I have moved here I have not found a good spot to get away to have a quiet time or just read.  WELL this place had this back corner that had small tables and people were back there with computers studying and working.  I am so excited that after 6 months here I have finally found a place to get away and get my diet coke fountain drink and just read and journal!  I use to love going to Panera Bread to do this and have missed it greatly!  I just can't tell you how much joy I am filled with having found this place!  and the best part is its only 8 blocks from my apt!  Okay, so I know you are probably thinking I am crazy for being this excited, but I just had to share.  I love having other people share with me on things that I find exciting,  so thanks for hopefully being excited with me as you read this:-)  
By the way, the two pictures are from my time at home during the holidays.  

peace like a river...

bethany