Blessings

I have been listening to this song on repeat on my ipod this past week. It has greatly ministered to me in so many ways.  Laura Story talks about the words of the song Here. I love how real she is.  I have gotten to know Laura a little bit over the years through our multiple mutual friends and every time I hear her heart I walk away humbled and more inspired to know my savior in the way that she does.  Although I love all her music, these words have really hit me in a different place.

Blessings
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
But long that we'd have the faith to believe

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home, is not our home

‘Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise
I love how Laura says in her video "that there is blessedness through waiting on the Lord".  These past few years have been such a lonely season for me as I wade through my 20's.  I have often felt like the Lord is not "blessing" me in the way that I see him "blessing" others.  I specifically have struggled through a lot of doubt and hopelessness with this in the last few month.  When I first heard this song my eyes welled up with tears as  I started really thinking about what it means for God to bless me. The Lord has used this song to grip my heart in a time when I needed it so badly.  I am thankful for these words. I am thankful that my Father loves me enough to not let me settle for lesser things and that He is blessing me in a way that He sees perfect for my life each day.   I pray that I would see his blessings in my life daily and focus on the blessedness on waiting for better things from the Lord. That this is not my home and God has so much more in store for me.