Why I don't make New Years Resolution...

I said in my first post this year that I don't make New Year's Resolutions, but IF I DID it would be to blog more. Seeing that I haven't blogged in over a week I think I have already broken the one resolution I was trying to make. Oh well. I am back from St. Louis and had an amazing time! I will post pictures soon.

Last week my staff team had a day of prayer at my casa. My boss Tracy asked us each to pick one word that we could pray for each other this year. I thought that was such a great idea. Let's be honest, if we all made a list of things to pray most likely none of us would actually pray for one another, but one word I can handle. The word I picked for myself was CONTENTMENT. Since that day it has been so good for me to pray specifically for contentment for myself. I know that I have always been a person who looks to the next thing, who looks at the grass on the other side of the fence and just thinks it is soooo much greener. With my struggle with this sin, I don't think that I have ever consistently prayed that I would fight in it and that the Lord would help me to be content in all circumstances. It has been so good for me claim Philippians 4:11-13. The Lord has been really gracious to me in helping me take one day at a time and specifically this week to be more content where he has me. Now I know some of you may think why is she not content or how is she not content. Sometimes I feel really guilty with being discontent because I consistently get from people, "your life seems so glamorous", I live vicariously through you", "it's so cool that you live in NYC". I am so thankful for where God has brought me and that he was faithful to my prayers and that he gave me my dream of living in a city. It really was the Lord! But oh I am so sinful. Now I just want the next thing. In the worlds eyes I am surrounded by the best of the best here. There is always something more to want in this city, there is always something more to want in this life. It just always seem that no matter what season we are in our sinful selves want what someone else has, at least that is how I am. So I am praying daily for contentment, I am praying daily that I would seek the Lord first in my life. I know that ultimately I will never be content until Heaven, because ultimately I am longing for Jesus. I am longing for there to be so more brokenness. But for now my prayer for 2010 is that I would learn how to take one day at a time and live in the grace that God gives me for that day. That I would be content with what the Lord gives me and thankful for his blessings in my life, in my story.

I pray that as you read this that you would stop and pray for contentment in your own life and that we would all fight to see that the grass on the other side of the fence really isn't all that much greener.