Change

Change is hard. I know change is a constant part of our lives, but sometimes it feels like it is a little too constant in my life.  I feel like i get used to something and then it changes.  Maybe that is being dramatic, but I just really struggle with change.  This week I have especially felt the thrusts of changes.  I know it will be ok, but sometimes it just feels like it won't.  The theme for VBS this year was "Trust God"  One of the days we taught the kids that "no matter how you feel....TRUST GOD"  I feel like I keep saying that to myself this week.  I keep telling myself that the Lord is going to take care of me and that he will never change.  It has really hit me recently that change can be a mixture of suffering and blessing.  Sometimes change is one person's blessing and another person's suffering.  For me I feel like the changes around me are changes in other peoples lives, BUT those changes impact my life.  I know that is normal and expected, but it's just not always easy. It is especially not easy when you are single and you have noone to embrace the changes with you. I want to hold on to what I know and what feels comfortable even when the Lord is asking me to live my life in faith.  To walk trusting Him knowing that He will guide my every move.  This week as I was spending time with the Lord I came upon the song below.  I really love the words.  I feel like in a world that is constantly going to change I want to be near the Lord.  I want to draw near to the one who will be with me through it all and will be my protection in the storms of life.

For your nearness Lord I hungerFor your nearness Lord I waitHold me ever closer FatherSuch a love I can’t escape
For your nearness I am hopingFor your nearness Lord I longHave no need of any otherI have found where I belongYes, I have found where I belong
So draw me nearer LordNever let me goCloser to your heartDraw me nearer LordDraw me nearer Lord
In your nearness there is healingWhat was broken now made wholeRestoration in its fullnessLasting hope for all who come
In your nearness I take shelterWhere you are is where I’m homeI have need of only one thingTo be here before your throneTo be here before you throne
So draw me nearer LordNever let me goCloser to your heartDraw me nearer Lord
So draw me nearer LordNever let me goCloser to your heartDraw me nearer LordDraw me nearer Lord
And keep me here, keep me hereThere’s nowhere else I rather beSo keep me here, keep me hereThere’s nowhere else I rather beThere’s nowhere else I rather be
So draw me nearer LordNever let me goCloser to your heartDraw me nearer LordDraw me nearer LordDraw me nearer my Lord
"Draw Me Nearer" By: Meredith Andrews